Happy Christmas?

Humans ; the very substance of what a society that's based on social values are made upon.

These beings are brought upon earth to be social, possess high-EQ in which to allow us to mingle with each & one another for clearly one reason & that is ...

To survive.

Well, the age of the cavemen has long surpassed us all & in this modern age where physical safety is no longer associated with the need to look for friends who watch out for our backs, canceling out any potential danger, while we also cover theirs.

We have now transcended from barbarians to social creatures who seek everyday as an opportunity to lubricate our social engines. Social lubrication as it seems, allows us to build stronger bonds among one another so there would be someone we could all seek comfort from in times of sorrow, seeking warmth & love to get by the storm be it family or friends.

And i myself, am lugubrious to say that although packing a well-lubricated social engine where just a slight burst of acceleration puts me in the comforts of my friends, that very same engine of mine is unable to even perform an embarrassingly simple task.

Simply put, appreciating the very few moments between my eldest sis & i during this x'mas vacation.



Can you imagine? She flew all the way from Sanfranciso to spend Xmas together with dad & i and unfortunately, i wasn't able to breathe in any of those enthusiasm, at all. A mere ' thank you for the dinner you cooked ' was all that i could remember saying to her.

It's such a sad truth, having a sister who've grown up with for so many damn years & not being able to develop any chemistry with. It's so difficult to even talk to her on a daily basis where i would just avoid speaking to her on every single occasion. I would always dread doing anything with her & would enjoy spending time with my 2nd sis instead. What am i ? How are we related? Is she my sister? Is it the 11 year age-gap? Am i just a retard?

I'm a freak.

1. Those awkward silences at the dining table
2. obliged to accompany her to the airport cos of dad
3. Worse part came, sis & i didn't even bother looking at each other when she left the car, not a single bye, have a safe trip or any of that bullshit
   

I wish we were closer.